Lily Lulonut

Hello fellow peeps! 👋

So, how does one, girl?

OMG, I wish I knew!!! 😅 Look, I have been transitioning for about 9 months or so. I have no girlfriends or any family in the area, so I’m a lonely trans girl. That’s fine, but it does mean I have no one to turn to, no one to ask, “how do I girl?” I’m figuring out makeup 💄, I think, though I only have myself to judge. Fashion though, omg. Like, what is a shirt 👚, and what kind of pants 👖? I think I have figured out my size thanks to Amazon, but that does not help figure out what would look good.

I am floundering a bit on this. Luckily, I have not had to worry about it too much, but the more I transition, the more I want to figure it out. I don’t want to wear the same thing every day; that’s what I did in the before times. I wore pants of some kind, a t-shirt, and a button-up shirt over that, not buttoned up. Sometimes I changed it up and wore just the t-shirt, and sometimes I wore the button-up, buttoned up. So my sense of style is non-existent.

These days I wear some kind of pants, though pants are hard and I have no idea what styles there are and what to get that will look good on me. I wear a t-shirt, though more feminine. And I am wearing a cardigan 🧥. I have like 5 of the same cardigans in different colors. So as you can tell, my style has not changed at all. Sure, the clothes I am wearing are women’s clothes, and look more feminine, but nothing else changes.

Today was a bit different. I bought a black, cute poncho thing. I fell in love right away because it looked good on me and it was different. Though now I want to wear it all the time, but I want other styles too. Ack, why are clothes so hard? 😩

Next week, I have an interview for my current job. Promotions and government do not mix. No big deal, but what do I wear? I don’t have anything more than casual or business casual. I got rid of all my boy clothes. So I need to go to the store and see if I can find something. Likely no skirts or anything because I am not out yet. So something feminine and professional, while not an outright dress. 👗

This brings me back to the lack of girlfriends or anything. I have no one to go shopping with. No one to help me pick out outfits or help me figure out what works. I am going to have to go out alone this weekend, to some stores and just look at things. Shopping in stores is scary. Like, this is the thing friends can help with. And what about dressing rooms? Ahhhh! 😱

I have thought about asking one of my coworkers at work. There are two who I might feel comfortable asking to go shopping with me. That feels just as scary as going shopping by myself though. It has been on my mind a lot though, and I may end up asking.

I think this post was a bit more rambly than I thought it would be going into it. I also don’t think I have any kind of point this time. Fashion is hard if you have zero experience or friends to help guide you. Whelp, time to woman up I guess, lol. 💪😂

Thanks all! 💕